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Semi-Annual trip to LJ Land [Oct. 12th, 2007|10:12 pm]
Violet Jones
I seriously go through long stretches of time where I forget this thing exists. Apologies to the people who I adore on here who have no other way of keeping track of me, I get caught up in real life sometimes, and all I do online anymore is check my email and my myspace.

Anyway, real life kind of sucks at the moment, after a long period of actually improving all the time, and being pretty awesome. Basically, I met someone great, we fell for each other, but we're in the process of breaking up because he's way too emotionally unavailable and unwilling to be in a relationship at this juncture. He's five years older than me physically, but otherwise, about 20 years younger in every respect. It's really really hard on me, because I never open myself up to this kind of hurt, and I can't fucking stand it. Maybe I'll get lucky, he'll grow up and fucking get some balls and realize the opportunity that's being wasted, but you know... things don't always work out all perfect-like. They usually get nowhere near it, so I guess for now I just hope it won't take me forever to get un-depressed about it. Currently, I wake up, cry a lot, get angry, then numb, go to work, or lay around reading all the time. Basically Super-Depressed Mode Without An End In Sight. But today, I put an end to a juvenile week-long bout of being ignored by my soon-to-be ex-boyfriend by begging the question: "So, are you ever going to speak me again, or what?" To which I received a subdued: "Yes." Me: "When?" Him: "I don't know." Me: "Well it's really not helping anything, and I think it's really fucking rude." Him: "Well can I call you tonight after work?" Me: "Yes." /end interaction

So this is the first we've spoken to each other in over a week, and this is post-angry-harsh e-mail from me requesting my stuff back, and calling him out on being a jackass, to which I received no response.

And what caused all this strife to begin with? I really have no fucking clue! We've been having the same arguments for fucking ever about what each of us want and don't want out of being together, and keeping it simple, etc... things I'm all very flexible about, and then a week from last Tuesday we had a huge drunken fight where I got everything off my chest that was annoying me, we both cried, I told him to fuck off, and get out, he said no, didn't want to break up, etc. Next day, we pretend nothing happened, I figured we'd talk about it later. He invited me over that night to watch a movie, said he'd call when he got off work... guess who never called for fucking days on end.

So it's this whole stupid mess, and his actions of the past couple weeks should especially make me run for the hills, and I AM resigned to breaking it off, but I can't help the fact that I pretty much fell in love fast and hard, and I don't want that to just disappear. It's driving me fucking insane right now, and I don't really know what I'm gonna do if and when he calls me tonight. I know what I should do and what I want to do, but I need some sort of happy medium because neither would work in the end.

God... this is why I missed LJ... I can vent on here like I can't anywhere else, because Angel won't read this here, but someone will, and therefore I will get either advice or sympathy, or if not, just general cathartic release for about 5 minutes until I'm on my own in the real world again.

Other than all of this, I'm doing pretty all right. I love Austin. But I hate this fucking heartache.
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SXSW Stuff [Mar. 15th, 2007|04:09 pm]
Violet Jones
Hey, I just wanted to say I'll respond to all fic comments very soon, but I'll probly be working my ass off all weekend, so you may have to wait...

Secondly, and more importantly, does anyone have any idea if The Gale is going to be in Austin for the US Premiere of "Scott Walker"? Because I would like to see him, not in the creepy stalker fangirl way, but just in an "Oh, there he is, *smile*" kind of way.

I'm currently trying to figure out if I can go see any bands I love while their in town. Albert Hammond Jr is playing tonight, and I think I may be able to get into that one, but The Dears & Bloc Party are also playing tonight, but I think that'll be impossible. There are some free events throughtout the week, but their all mostly from 12-6, and I don't want to get drunk on free cheap beer before I go to work. :( The Walkmen are playing one of these free shows, and Daniel Johnston is too, today actually. A lot of other cool people that I like ok, and/or know their names but have never really listened to them are around to.

SXSW is cool, but mostly just if you're connected to the industry and can get into shit you wanna see with no problem. It's mostly a huge problem for regular folk who live in Austin. BUMMER.

Hopefully I'll see Albie tonight, though! I miss my Strokes and I need a fix.
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FIC: Assassination 6/10 [Mar. 12th, 2007|04:14 pm]
Violet Jones
Previous Chapters: 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5

The Assassination of Brian Kinney By the Model James Ford
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FIC: Assassination 5/10 [Feb. 22nd, 2007|03:59 pm]
Violet Jones
This is what I like to call The Hunky Dory Chapter...

If anyone has any questions or qualms about this fic, please refer to the comments on the last chapter, or feel free to post questions and comments to this chapter, because I really enjoyed talking about Ch. 4, and I kind of miss fic discussion. Thanks for reading!

Previous Chapters: 1 - 2 - 3 - 4

The Assassination of Brian Kinney By the Model James Ford

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I need some new LOST icons... point me to some nice ones if you would [Feb. 15th, 2007|03:15 pm]
Violet Jones
308 - Flashes Before Your EyesCollapse )
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LOST, you done me right... Hooray for you! [Feb. 8th, 2007|01:52 pm]
Violet Jones
So last night, Ben & I went and sat among a theater full of fellow LOST fanatics, and watched the first new episode in 3 months. Let me just say, so close on the heels of the 3 month Summer hiatus, the Late-Fall/Winter hiatus was the worst ever! It reminded me of being addicted to cable shows and having to wait a full year to see the new season after major cliffhangers were introduced. NOT COOL!

Anyway, that's not the point anymore... the point is that in order to please their hardcore audience, Lost had to come back with a killer episode in order for people not to abandon ship, seeing as the first 6 episodes of Season 3 were not so stellar... I mean, there were good moments, but for the most part, it was BOOOOORRRIIING. In my opinion, they accomplished that goal.

SPOILERS HEREIN...Collapse )

I'm excited! *Claps hands enthusiastically*
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FIC: Assassination 4/10 [Feb. 6th, 2007|11:45 am]
Violet Jones
First of all, I wanna give a big HELL FUCKING YEAH! for the return of Lost tomorrow night! Finally... Kate/Sawyer deliciousness!

Also, I'll be getting internet installed in my house this week, finally so I won't have to ignore the internet so much anymore, since I have to come to the library for their limited bullshit access, surrounded mostly by undesirable freaks... YAY!

This chapter goes out to PushyPants Liz. ;-P

Previous chapters are here: 1 - 2 - 3

Enjoy!

The Assassination of Brian Kinney By the Model James Ford
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FIC: Assassination 3/? [Jan. 11th, 2007|06:57 pm]
Violet Jones
The Assassination of Brian Kinney By the Model James Ford

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FIC: Assassination 2/? [Jan. 11th, 2007|06:45 pm]
Violet Jones
Hi... here's some new fic for you guys... 2 new chapters. Chapter 1 can be found here.

WARNING: Justin/Other

The Assassination of Brian Kinney by the Model James Ford


Chapter 2Collapse )
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Bullet Points [Oct. 13th, 2006|01:05 am]
Violet Jones
* Go see The Departed. It's fucking fantastic fun. Leonardo DiCaprio totally nailed it. Great cast all around really, and Scorcese hasn't been this good since GoodFellas.

* I'm very excited that Lost has returned for a short run of new episodes, but come the fuck on, man... episode 303 better rock ass or else I will be forced to keep watching, albeit disgruntledly until it gets more exciting. I really like a few things so far, but there hasn't been anything really that new or daring. COME ON J.J. AND CREW!

* I have nothing else to say. Watch both of the above because I said so. Thanks.
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